The Right Decision

Well, leaving someone after 5 1/2 years is never easy. But I know for absolute certain that I am making the right decision. Abuse issues aside, I just am happier without him. I've stayed with my mom for two nights and I have been happier than I have been for a long time. And as cold hearted as it may sound, I really have no interest in what or how my husband is doing without me. I have no interest in talking to him. He has been calling crying about how much he misses me, and he's upset that I've been ignoring his phone calls, but I just wanted to enjoy myself for my couple of days of freedom. Talking to him puts me in a bad mood.

I dread going back. I feel like I will be going back to prison. It is so emotionally stressful to be there, especially with him being the complete mess that he is now. Because I have to try to comfort him, but he can see right through it because I no longer care. I have already moved on in my mind. I have signed a lease and paid the security deposit for my new house, and will be seeing my lawyer tomorrow. I've opened my own separate bank account. I'm really doing it this time.